I'm guilty for wanting to have a child of my own body. My husband and I adopted 7 years ago, but we have been ttc for 10 years. I have an opportunity to try Clomid to grow our family. I feel guilty because I know I should be happy with what we have, but I still feel empty inside. I feel guilty because I don't feel I'm doing the best I can when it comes to parenting my daughter. I lose my patience and I find myself yelling which causes me to feel even worse for myself and her. I'm told that we fight more like sisters than mother and daughter. To be honest, I don't know what that is like. I don't ever remember fighting with my sister so I lack that frame of reference. (My family isn't as close as I'd like it to be and we rarely talk.)
I don't know if I should parent another child if I already feel inadequate as a parent to the child I do have. Some parts of me wants to just be pregnant and have a baby again. I love that stage. Another reason is my and my husband's budding careers. I don't know if it will be possible to raise a baby and a child while working.